Struggle > Resignation

Welcome to 2017!

While this blog has not been updated in a few months, many things have been happening behind the scenes.  The first two books of a trilogy have now been released by Adams Media, now an imprint of Simon & Schuster.  These are A Mindful Morning and A Mindful Evening, both of which have pages on this site.  The third book in the series is called A Mindful Day and will be released probably in the fall of this year.  So I am now meditating and writing on the third book every day, with the first half of the book due to the publisher on January 17th.  Taken together, these books will be a good introduction to the philosophy and practice that I have been developing over the past few  years.

If you have read one of the introductory books and would like to take the practice a little further, I recommend that you study the Nine Gates lessons.  Some of these are available on this site, and some I have not yet uploaded.  The first nine of twenty-seven lessons are now completed, taking the sadhak through the first three ranks of the Satsangha in what comprises the outermost circle of three concentric circles.  If any of you would like more information about these lessons, please feel free to contact me.  I envision the first set of devotees to complete the lessons to become a sort of council that will guide the teaching and community going forward.

In other news, you may have noticed that I have written a few political pieces, which you may find confusing due to the spiritual and esoteric nature of my other writings.  I believe that meditative practice, properly conceived, will sometimes entail taking stances on behalf of justice in the political realm.  For that reason, I have found it necessary to speak on behalf of the rights of minorities and women and against the rising tide of nationalism and xenophobia on both sides of the Atlantic.  People of conscience cannot simply remain silent in this turbulent time.  We have to hold to spiritual practice while also remaining engaged in civic life, even if that means receiving criticism and harassment.

Struggle is greater than resignation.  This applies in our sadhana, as we seek to build the divine fire within the heart chakra.  It also applies to public life, as we try to make a more just world for all beings.  The inner practice and the outer practice are united in the goal of bringing about the Satya Yuga, or Age of Truth, that will dawn after this present moral decline has exhausted itself.  As spiritual practitioners, we do not sit idly by, twiddling our thumbs, waiting for the New Age.  No, we wield the sword of Kalki, using our talents and abilities to bend the universe towards justice (paraphrasing Dr. King).  We work not only through our meditations but also through our actions to make the truth dawn.

So do not be discouraged in this dark time! Go ahead with your sadhana.  Take care of your well-being. Live a good life and care about others.  Say something when you see injustice. As we band together in community, our good actions are strengthened and multiplied many times over.  If any of you readers want to take a greater role in the Satsangha, please contact me.  We have much work to do in order to make this society a force for good in the world.  I see the very high readership from the site stats, but I don’t always know who you are.  Please feel free to drop a line.  I can be reached on twitter @DavidDillardWri or via email at writepage [at] gmail [dot] com.  And if you can’t take an active role, please donate via the paypal link on the main page.  I have so far maintained this site with my own funds, but I want it to one day be self-sustaining.

Peace and blessings to all of you in the new year!  I hope that the information on this site will lead you to greater peace and prosperity in the year ahead.  Aum Gam Ganapataye Namah! Jai Maa! Jai Swamiji!


(David Dillard-Wright)

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Just another day, right? It can always wait until tomorrow.  Just one more minute, one more click.  Later, later, later.  Deferral, endless deferral.  This is the pattern that we must break. Train the mind to not go outside itself or get ahead of itself.  Train the mind to sit still, to exert no effort at all.  Call the thoughts, like chickens, back home to roost.  Do not get hooked on looking for the next big thing.  Do not get hooked on the many distractions.  The world will always offer another absorption, another chain of do more and be more.  The world will always offer you another opportunity to get ahead of yourself, to live outside of yourself.  Rarely will it allow you to just be.  In fact, sitting still is not possible within the prevailing mindset.

And even if you can sit still, even if you have training in advanced meditative techniques, can you train the mind to go back within, like the turtle withdrawing into its shell?  If you do puja and homa, can  you grasp the essence of the words you chant?  That everything is Vishnu, Vishnu, Vishnu?  That all is consciousness, including you?  That everything is That? That you are That?  As an old friend once asked, can you Be Here Now?  It’s not that hard, but it is very hard.  To sit still, yes, but to not let the thoughts go out and roam wherever they wish.  To not follow along with that old goat rope of believe and achieve.  And here’s the thing: when you get that little bit of silence, you might be afraid of missing out on something.  But then the world washes over you in waves, and you see how beautiful it is.

And how would life look different if I didn’t need you to think in a certain way about me?  What if I could let go of the need for you to think that I am beautiful or spiritual or [insert favored adjective here]? Letting go of caution, I could be free to be whatever occurs to me at this moment.  Spontaneity and play would once again become a possibility.  Living with true artistry would once again become a possibility.  To live without having to please others or myself.  To get out of the way and let be.  To participate in the unfolding mystery, to let it engulf me and have its way with me.  To merge with the secret heart of being. To feel the beginning-less origin making all things even now—each moment ancient, each moment brand new.


Doing nothing, happiness comes.  Thinking nothing, happiness comes.  Happiness arises at the end of striving.  Happiness comes when the striving for happiness ceases.  That’s the old trap, the old goat rope, to think that happiness lies out there, just beyond reach.  Just try a little harder, just do a little more, just make a little more money.  And of course that’s what the bosses want us to think, because they, too, have been deluded into thinking that they always need a little more and a little more.  So we entrap ourselves and entrap others.  We have to learn how to untie the knots that we have tied for ourselves, to break the chains of our bondage.

I can free myself by looking within.  Finding nothing there inside myself, I must have the courage to keep looking, to stare into that abyss of darkness.  I must have the courage to sit there in that nothing, in that gaping need, and do nothing about it.  I must stop trying to be fulfilled.  I must sit there reverently before this void.  And, whether I sit or stand, whether I work or I play, whether I open my wallet or keep it shut, I must continue to acknowledge and keep company with this dark night inside.  If I do not need to solve my problems, I am free.  If I do not need to medicate or abdicate or eradicate, I am free.  Then I can eat in peace and chant in peace, work in peace and pray in peace.


Gibberish. These words will not help.  Unless you truly and purposely set down all preoccupation.  Unless you have unwavering faith and devotion.  Unless you are willing to set aside the payoff that you get from distraction.  If you can truly listen, even for one second, happiness will be yours.  But don’t look for happiness.  Don’t allow yourself to be led by the nose.  Become sovereign over your situation by sitting still, by giving up the old panicked way of thinking.  Refuse to believe in fixes.  Know yourself to already be whole.  Perhaps alarm bells are ringing in your head now, that old self-preservation instinct, which says that you must go back to the old way of striving.  And yet where are the demons, except within ourselves?

Give yourself permission to be at peace, right now, wherever you may be.  Become extremely lazy, just for right now.  Become so lazy that you cannot be bothered even to think.  Set aside the heaviest of burdens, the human mind.  You will find it hard to stop thinking, nigh unto impossible.  Consider the wisps of thought that remain to be tendrils of incense drifting through the air of the holy temple.  This holy temple is the mind that has inquired into its own nature, and, therefore, has been cleansed of all impurity.  In this darkened, hallowed place, keep the lamps few.  Trim the wicks carefully.

For the ungoverned mind, it will do no good to visit Bodh Gaya or Rishikesh.  If I cannot stand to be with myself, it will not matter where I go.  Everything will become an elaborate avoidance strategy, a kind of show that I put on for myself and others, a puppet show.  Look at me being spiritual.  Look at me being sexy.  Look at this, look at that.  In order to be at peace, I must at first just be.  Then I will be prepared to receive the teaching.  Then I will be inured to all this useless garbage that passes for culture and civilization.  I wish peace for you, I wish peace for myself, I wish peace for the world.  In order for that to happen, the drive for more must stop.

A Mindful Morning Available for Pre-Order

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My new book, A Mindful Morning: Start Each Day with a Clear Mind and Open Heart, is now available for pre-order from Amazon, with the official release on August 1st.  Here are the first few paragraphs from the introduction:

In devotional Hinduism, the hours before dawn are thought to be among the most auspicious for meditation, as the veil between the divine and human worlds is the thinnest during these hours. The morning rituals serve as purification for the day to come, to set the mind on the right track. Taking a few moments in the morning to collect your thoughts and check in with your emotions can do wonders for your ability to manage and dismiss stress throughout the remainder of the day. The modern rituals of drinking coffee and reading the news also prepare the mind to face the challenges ahead, and these, too, can be met with mindfulness. Mindfulness, an intentional and steady embrace of the present moment, comes from within.

Few of us claim to be morning people, but perhaps we haven’t given ourselves permission to savor the early hours, to appreciate the light of a new sun. The reflections in A Mindful Morning come from a variety of world philosophies and religions, and they will help you start each day intentionally. These moments of centering will help take the sting out of the morning commute and pressing schedule by easing you calmly into your day. Over the course of this book, you will develop strong inner reserves that help you remain at peace despite the trials of our frantic society, so you can move throughout the day consciously and purposefully as your best and most authentic self.

You may think that you do not have time for mindfulness or meditation, but just think about how much time you spend reading random bits of news and Internet ephemera. Think about how much time you spend tweeting or going on Facebook, or playing Minecraft or Candy Crush. Think about the time that you spend sorting through mostly nonvital e-mail. Think about the stuff that you have to do: compiling reports for work, taking care of the kids, paying bills, buying groceries, doing the laundry: The list goes on and on. You deserve a break of a few minutes, several times a day, to collect yourself and put your mind in a calmer state. You deserve a break from the constant stream of noise and information.

I wrote this book thinking that you, dear reader, have lots of competing priorities—that you do not, in fact, live in a hermitage on top of a mountain. I imagine you sneaking a few minutes here and there to center yourself. I imagine you setting down your cell phone and finding that comfortable chair or reading nook. I see you lighting a stick of incense for a brief time of sacred silence. I see you at your desk or cubicle grabbing a minute or two to take some deep breaths and engage in thoughtful reading. Know that, wherever you are, you stand at the center of the struggle of the ages learning how to live a peaceful life in the midst of the hectic world. May you find a welcome respite in these pages.



A Goddess-Based Path to a Sustainable Future

My talk from the Parliament of the World Religions, “Sanatana Dharma and Earth Liberation: A Goddess-Based Path to a Sustainable Future,” is now available in article format at Sutra Journal.  The article is an ecological reading of the Ramayana epic, meant to serve as a guide in this age of corporate globalization, climate change, and mass extinction.  I see it as an authentically Hindu (note that I do not mean the only authentically Hindu) response to the environmental challenges of the twenty-first century.  Some learned pandits who are very familiar with Ramayana were present at the Parliament and said that they found my reading refreshing but also faithful to the text.  That makes me feel good as a convert to this tradition keenly aware of the dangers of appropriation.

I would also like to encourage everyone to support Sutra Journal, which is mostly a labor of love as far as I can tell.  There is so much garbage on the internet these days, and it is nice to have a site filled with informative articles that actually matter, both intellectually and spiritually.  If you take a look at one of the issues, you’ll see that it’s a very ambitious project.  So please support the journal so that it sticks around and does not fade into the ether.  We need more voices for the inner traditions, the religious aspects of yogic practice that are missing from so many of the health and fitness publications.

Some thoughts on Shirdi Sai Baba



The 108 names of Shri Shirdi Sai Baba cure any feelings of sadness, regret, or anger.  Baba lifts the devotee out of the immediate circumstances that might lead to depression or disappointment and gives the devotee the cosmic vision of all-pervading divinity.  Just gazing on Baba’s picture or discussing him with like-minded individuals elevates the mind and heart.  Even the smallest act of devotion towards him will be meritorious, leading the seeker to the feet of the Lord.  Baba cares for both the material and spiritual concerns of those who seek him and serves as a refuge for all who call to him.

In meditation, I saw Baba cleaning his pipe as well as some pots and pans by a stream.  He said to me, “If a rich man has mud on his feet, will the water wash the mud from his feet?”

“Yes,” I said.

“And the same for a poor man?,” he asked. “What about a sinful man?  Will the water wash the mud from his feet as well?”

“Yes,” I said. “All of these can clean their feet with water.”

“And the same for a holy man?”

“Yes,” I said.

“So, in the same way, my name cures all manner of people of whatever negative thoughts they may have.  My name clears the problems from the lives of the devotees of any station in life.”

He directed me to carry his pots towards the temple.

“And those pots that you carry.  You move them from one place to another? A rich man or a poor man could also move them from one place to another?”

“Yes, definitely,” I said.

“And a righteous man or a sinful person could move them from one place to another?”

“Yes,” I said.

“In the same way, any person, of any background, religion, or station in life can become my devotee.  As they carry my message, so I carry them across the world of objects and relationships to the goal of liberation.”

“I am going to a huge mela,” he said.  “There will be many people there who do not know me.  They do not know my story.   They know nothing of my udi, of my works, of my samadhi.  And you will tell them about me as they come to you. I know you have a tendency to be overly worried about your past, to scrutinize yourself too greatly, but do not worry.  My name will be enough for you.”

As soon as the vision of Baba had come, it left again, and I wondered about Baba’s words.  What could he mean by this great mela?  Who would I tell about him?  There were other sayings of Baba as well, but I cannot remember them now.  I resolved to write down what I could remember and share these words, in the hopes that others would find relief from suffering.

I learned everything I know about Shirdi Sai Baba from two sources: the Sai Satcharitra by Shri Hemadpant (English version by Shri N.V. Gunaji) and the biography, Sai Baba of Shirdi: A Unique Saint, by M.V. Kamath and V.B. Kher.  Over the years, he has rescued me from distress many times, in small and large ways.  I would say to those of a skeptical frame of mind that you do not need to know why or how Sai devotion works: just try it.  Say the words, “Aum Sai, namo namah, Shri Sai, namo namah, Jaya jaya Sai, namo namah, Satguru Sai, namo namah.”  This makes an excellent walking or seated meditation, and you can find recorded versions on the internet.

I will be writing more about Shirdi Sai in the future as the inspiration comes and as my other duties permit.  Please let me know of your encounters with Sai Baba of Shirdi.  Try one of these devotions–reading a chapter of Sai Satcharitra, saying the 108 names, or performing japa–and let me know how it goes.  I will send you a picture of the image of Shirdi Sai that I made myself if you message me.


Chaitra Navaratri

Durga Puja Festival

Blessings on the occasion of the auspicious beginning of Chaitra Navaratri! The Divine Mother has drawn you to this website for a reason, so that you, through Self inquiry, meditation, and worship, might give Her your burdens and receive the gift of divine illumination.  She longs to scoop you, Her child, into her lap and comfort you.  She longs to use her divine weapons to fight the demons for you.  She takes joy in fulfilling the wishes of her devotees, in taking them to the highest bliss.  We only have to ask to receive her help and protection.

Please consider taking part in this Chaitra Navaratri Sankalpa, to chant 10008 repetitions of the Durge Smrtaa mantra as a group.  All the devotees will reap maximum benefit from taking part in this divine challenge given to us by Shree Maa and Swamiji.  Chandi Maa Ki Jai!!!

Nine Factors of Spiritual Growth

Salt Lake City, October 2015

The spiritual aspirant (sadhak) and the spiritual community (satsangha) are intimately bound with one another.  Indeed, the false opposition between the individual and the collective must be questioned, as all reality, temporal and eternal, manifests from Shiva-Shakti.  There is no “inside” or “outside” for the satsangha, as all beings are on a pilgrimage to their home in God.  These principles stem from an intuitive understanding that all things, living and non-living, human and animal, exist at the pleasure of the unseen divine love.  The divine play (leela) alone makes the illusion (maya) of separation appear.  The vision of love increases when initiates and non-initiates alike follow these precepts:

  1. Examine past faults in a light and unattached manner, seeking to purify flaws and bring positive actions to bear on the future.
  2. Act with strength of purpose, holding an unfaltering mental attitude.
  3. Serve at the feet of the deities (puja, homa) and engage in continual prayer, both mantra recitation and spontaneous conversation with the devas.
  4. Give to those who have less, either materially or spiritually, making the satsangha strong through mutual cooperation and respect.
  5. Seek to complete every action with lovingkindness, regarding no task as trivial.
  6. Always look for new opportunities to serve the community, bringing ideas into action.
  7. Make teachings available for those with little or no previous background, lending support where necessary.
  8. Look for service projects that will improve the natural environment and the lives of non-human creatures, laying the foundations for an improved relationship with the Earth.
  9. Put aside all doubt, taking refuge in the satsangha and dedicating life to service.

These principles, when followed daily, will rapidly accelerate the spiritual growth of individuals while simultaneously making the society vibrant.  They should be reviewed regularly as a spiritual exercise, with each precept adapted to local needs and conditions.

Parliament of World Religions 2015 Photos


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The Salt Lake Temple

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Swamiji Prasannatmananda of Vedanta Society of Berkeley

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Articles used by Ghandi, Ghandi Ashram exhibit

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Ghandi original document, Ghandi Ashram exhibit

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Jain Temple

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Tibetan Mandala Construction

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Tibetan Bead Seller Booth

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Sikh chanting, Golden Temple model in Langar Hall

Ute Morning Prayers

Ute morning prayers

A few pictures can’t really capture the feelings of goodwill and harmony that embraced the gathering of 9500 people, representing all major faith traditions from around the world, who gathered in Salt Lake City, October 15-19, 2015.  The attendees were devotees, philosophers, activists, scholars, and performers of every background, united around the common theme of “Reclaiming the Heart of Our Humanity.”  Not an unkind word was uttered among these delegates from supposedly antagonistic traditions, who discussed ways to address the major issues confronting humanity in the twenty-first century, especially women’s rights, global poverty, climate change, and war and terrorism.

Ashwin Navaratri

Durga Puja Festival

Shree Maa has given us a new sankalpa for Ashwin Navaratri.   It is a Mahishasura Mardini stotram by Shri Adi Shankara.  We will be striving for 1008 repetitions as a group during Navaratri, in addition to Chandi worship.  Sign up on the Shree Maa website if you can formally participate.  The Mandir will be live streaming as well throughout Navaratri.  Janyananda will be traveling to Utah for the Parliament of the World’s Religions. If you should happen to be going or live nearby, his talk is called “Sanatana Dharma and Earth Liberation: A Goddess-Based Path to a Sustainable Future,” and it will be in Room 355F at 2:00 p.m.  Janyananda will be talking about Sita, the scene from Ramayana in the Ashoka grove, the moments of grief before Hanuman arrives to comfort her. This will begin a discussion of the destruction of earth and the grief for what is happening to our planet.  He will also be meeting Hindu leaders and other religious leaders from around the world and will be seeking advice and blessings for the Society. May all of you have a wonderful Navaratri, and may the divine Mother in all of her forms bless you immensely!

Introducing The Sacred Thread Zine

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If you were a teenager in America in the 1980s or 1990s, and if you belonged to the punk or indie subcultures, chances are you or a friend had a zine (short for magazine, appropriate for a small magazine) that you made with a typewriter and old school cut-and-paste techniques.  Blogs have largely replaced zines, but there are still a lot of good ones out there. My favorites from the nineties were Cometbus and Pants That Don’t Fit.  Shout-outs also go to Fizgig, Henry Fanclub Maga, The B.O.A. Constrictor, and Window Copy. Cometbus, which always had great writing and artwork, is still around and has expanded into Microcosm Publishing. I don’t know what happened to Pants That Don’t Fit, but someone drop me a line if you know anything. Zines render that down-to-earth feeling that, yes, I too have have something to say, and no, I will not be hindered by the lack of an advertising budget.  Zines were ahead of the curve on LGBTQ issues and feminism, they reviewed bands from small and nonexistent labels, and they gave expression to idiosyncratic, first person points of view.  Reading a zine was like sitting down for a cup of coffee with a friend.  They were, and are, traded on a person-to-person basis or sold in independent bookstores and record shops.

In the best of that tradition, I offer you The Sacred Thread, a dharma punk zine for the 2010s.  The zine will be distributed on a very limited basis in physical form, via mail and at a few shops in Augusta, GA and Aiken, SC.  Or you can download it here. In this first issue:





This was a whole lotta fun to make, and there will hopefully be new issues quarterly, for starters.  Here are two versions that you can download.  First, for the hardcore dharma activist, who can make copies, fold, and distribute:

sacred thread #1 print, copy, fold

And if you can’t be bothered with print and just want to read online:

sacred thread #1 onscreen version

In the future, I hope the zine will feature more vegan recipes, more about skate/punk culture, and more mantras and spiritual practices.  Enjoy!